又嗎?

有些事情會突然"啪"的一聲突然浮現在腦海裡,

比方說今天早上昏昏欲睡的時候關於我有多恐懼死亡的感覺那一瞬間就跑回來了,

還有突然我就記得了原來地震那瞬間有我自己被恐懼逼出來的尖叫；

這些，原本我以為我都忘記了。

in these few days...

Many changes occured.

彈性疲乏

是因為今年寒假沒出去玩嗎?



日復一日我過著一樣的生活


滿意嗎?

有點無力


不滿意嗎

也還過得去


有些東西又停下來就是了



明天要做一些很不想做的事情(嘆氣)

我覺得有時候我很像濫好人

可是明明我才是滿肚子黑水的啊(腹黑?)

應該要來自我檢討一下如何當一個成功的壞人!


p.s 最近想要改變一下畫風,礙於一來沒時間,二來沒靈感。

20100120

This morning I woke up at 6:00 to ride my younger brother to the school bus stop. Even though the cold morning air was trying to cheer my body up, I was not fully awake. While riding my motorcycle, I thought I was still dreaming. In actuality, I did not really wake up until I washed my face with a cold towel. My pet bunny, Bubu, acted excitedly while I was approaching it. After giving several pats on its head, I freed it from its small cage, and he was running fast as if it were chased by a dog.
Afterward, I went to work. Actually, today is the first day of my part-time job. I was consistently troubled by the lady sitting next to me this morning. She often lost and forgot things. More often than not (=Often), when she lost something, she turned to me. WHY? Did I look like the kind of person who’d take others’ belongings as my own?
Since I had already spent 60 dollars on my lunch, I gave up the idea of going to a 7-11 to buy myself a cup of coffee, as I did yesterday. It’s 12:41 p.m. now, but I feel like it’s been a whole day.

20100119

During the working hours in the bank where I work part time today, I started reading the Discovery Magazine. One of the articles I read was about an iceberg photographer—Camille Seaman, a half native American, who was born in Berkley, California in 1969. The photos that she had taken were amazingly beautiful, making me well-motivated to see a real iceberg with my own eyes.

A lady working in the bank brought me a whole lots of envelops and documents. Then, she told me to put each of the documents into the envelops. I believed this would be my main assignment today because there has not been many applicants coming in to apply for school loans so far (and it was 3:16 in the afternoon). I’ve got only 21 applicants approaching me for school loans today. Unlike yesterday when I had only 17 applicants, I am today faced with all these endless-like documents and envelopes. It’s a day of hustle and bustle to me.